Many refuse to surrender to God because they beleive Satan’s lie, which tells them that God is judgmental and will punish them for their mistakes. All of this is completely false! God always has our best in mind! He will refuse us no good thing when we gladly submit to His Will. Read Romans 8:32. It only makes sense to surrender to God, because when we grow close to Him, His highest priority for us, we begin to have an impact on our world.
When you accepted Jesus Christ as your Savior, he not only forgave you but also made you into a new creature! You were no longer standing at a distance from God but were able to draw near to Him.