I asked my Dear Sister in Christ, Staci Sylvester if I could post this from her Facebook….POWERFUL MESSAGE! POWERFUL TESTIMONY
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This post is for those of us who don’t have a picture of a dad to post this weekend. A coworker recently asked me about my father. Over the years I’ve answered in different ways, and I can’t seem to word the truth in a way that doesn’t generate a look of pity or awkwardness..which makes me back peddle with,”Oh its fine…how can you miss what you don’t know…I’m ok.” It really isn’t ok, and I really wasn’t fine. The truth is a good dad can make all the difference-especially to a girl. I operated out of this crazy, “I don’t trust you, you’ll leave one day, I’m leaving you before you can go” mentality for most of my life. I got to a point where I had to admit that my biological father’s rejection was a bigger deal than I had thought. I had to let go of the blame I held onto…I used to call him drunk (that was the only time I had the courage -or stupidity- to)…so after I got sober for years I would tell myself “can you blame him for not wanting anything to do with you?”. But really, I was just making excuses.At the end of the day, he chose not be in my life. I can’t control that. What I can do is forgive And be grateful.I give forgiveness because Lord knows so much has been given to me that I don’t deserve. I am grateful for the great father figures God has put in my life. I am also grateful my kids will never have to experience this rejection, because they are blessed with one of the good ones.
???? I sincerely want to wish a Happy Father’s Day to the dads out there. And to those of us who don’t have a dad to call this weekend, I salute you.
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