I don’t know if it’s just me, I kind of doubt it, but I do have a feeling that I’m a little weirder than most when it comes to insecurities. Most people who know me don’t see it, because I’m a great faker. I missed my calling I probably should have been an actor. Because I feel worthless most days.
I’d like to have someone to blame like my siblings, but I can’t because they’ve always been my greatest encouragers. Can’t blame my parents, they too are amazing. Can’t blame friends… I have the best. So who is responsible for these feelings within me?
Can anybody out there identify with me?
So this morning I woke up feeling this way and I decided that it was toxic thinking.
That kind of thinking kills stuff.
It kills my creativity, my ability to write, sing, my overall happiness in general. I wanted to blame the Devil. Because after all he does do stuff like that; but I couldn’t even blame him. I wanted to blame some other people, just because… but I decided that all that was toxic thinking too.
I needed to get to the source of toxicity in my life and take control of it.
Apostle Paul (one of my heroes) said to
Embrace it!
2 Corinthians 12:10
Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.
I’m certainly not as strong as Paul. I do not take pleasure in reproaches) which is criticism. I don’t mind needing stuff, but I like to get stuff better. And I certainly don’t like it when people are mean to me, or I’m having hard times, even if it’s for Christ sake.
I’ll do it. I’ll do my best not to complain about it. But I don’t take pleasure in it.
The feelings of worthlessness comes from some mild rejection in my life with regards to my talent. But I can hardly compare that to what Apostle Paul went through. I’m embarrassed to even bring it up in this context. But I want to be real. And these are real emotions.
Paul said when I am weak, it’s then I’m strong.
And I can tell you that’s the truth. Because it’s when I’m at my weakest point, like this morning that I turn to the Lord for His word and guidance.
You may not have the same issues as me, but you have issues.
So let’s talk about issues in general.
Toxic thinking:
- Nobody cares
- This heartache will never end
- I’ll never move past this problem
- There’s no solution to this problem
- I’m broken beyond repair
That list could literally go on until eternity. So how do we fix it?
Never Trust Your Opinion. It’s bias.
Get a pen or pencil and write down Proverbs 3:5-6
Tape it to your bathroom mirror.
5 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
Empower It
Empower what? The Holy Spirit.
The only worthy Person to trust in is the Lord Jesus Christ. Most parents will tell you you’re awesome, even if you stink, or if they’re not good parents they’ll tell you that you stink even if you’re awesome.
Friends are the same.
You will go willy nilly on your opinion depending upon what kind of day you’re having.
So part of detoxing the brain is getting yourself out of control and allowing the Holy Spirit to guide your thought process. Relinquishing control to Someone must better at the reality of your life.
I know that sounds like one of those “Let go and let God” quotes that sounds great, but it’s hard to fulfill.
Yes it is. Unless you keep the word of God ever present in your life.
If I had not gone to the word of God this morning my thoughts would have governed my day.
Embrace it
Empower It (the Holy Spirit)
The last point is to Embark on it
The last part of verse 6 in proverbs 3 is “and He shall direct thy paths.”
Life is a journey whether it’s getting off the couch, or going to work, or going on an actual journey. We still need direction.
A lot of days I don’t leave the house. And truthfully I could be a hermit and just stay here. And because of that I can get into an unhealthy mindset like my day to day where I need to detox through the word of God and get myself busy with the work of the Kingdom.
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Thoughts like feelings of worthlessness or devaluing our gifts are not from God. His thoughts for us are of peace, with a plan.
If I succumb to the thoughts I’ve been having, God’s plan either won’t happen, or it won’t be as awesome as God desires. So I have to take those thoughts captive.
2 Corinthians 10:5
Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;
Another scripture to write down and place somewhere as a reminder. We can’t write the whole bible on a post it note, but we can write a few words of encouragement down that will help us for the day and detox our brain.
The word of God is a lot more fun than some of those detoxers for the body J You don’t have to spend the day in the bathroom with the word of God. Although if youre’ there anyway, it’s a good place to read.
Hope today has encouraged you
And I hope you’ll take the words I’ve said to heart, because it helped me detox some very negative thinking today.
