After an Abusive Marriage, I Have Been Praying That God Would Take My Life

Q: I want to be happy but after a dysfunctional childhood and an abusive marriage, I have been praying that God would take my life. Is that wrong? No one would really care or even miss me. — S.W.

A: God alone is the Giver of life and it is dangerous to take life into our own hands. Such thoughts are not from God but from Satan. The Bible says, “(Satan) comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly” (John 10:10, ESV).

Growing up in difficult circumstances, particularly in abusive relationships, leaves scars, but God has better plans for those who will come to Him. He understands feelings of despair. Such experiences lead to feeling worthless, as though no one cares, but we must not let society tell us that because the Bibles tells us the opposite. “Casting all your care upon (Jesus), for He cares for you” (1 Peter 5:7).

Praying to God indicates a knowledge of His power, of His interest in our lives. Throughout Scripture He has given us examples that when people pray and seek Him, He listens and answers (Jeremiah 29:11-13). In seeking Him in all things, He will guide and direct us in the way we should go — and it will never be suicide.

We all need Christian friends and fellowship, and getting involved in a local Bible-believing church enhances our lives and exhibits the love Christ has for the world. Knowing that God cares — and that His people care — makes all the difference in the world. God is sending forth His message of love, but we must tune in. We must be willing to listen and to receive His message and then to obey it.

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(This column is based on the words and writings of the late Rev. Billy Graham.)

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